I got released this Sunday

This post is more for my LDS friends. However, I know a lot of people serve in various ways their own churches. You may be able to relate.

For the last 3 years I have served as the Ward Clerk. It has required long Sundays and tested me more than I even considered when I accepted the calling. In fact I was the last remaining calling from when the Ward was created in 2008. In a way I saw it coming. I thought about trying something else. Having a calling less stressful, and one that let me get out from the "administrative" side of things and get back to the ministering.

This last Sunday I was released and for some reason it has been much harder to deal with than I thought it would. I spent all Sacrament Meeting thinking of ways I should have done my job better, better prepare others to do it, wishing I had appreciated my time more with the inspirational men I served with. I was distraught. I had no idea that I had become so attached to it. I had even already been given a new calling. Another adventure to look forward to, but still I feel remorseful at not being the Ward Clerk anymore. Which makes me wonder if I was this happy serving the Lord or because of the title I had while doing it? Am I as needed as I thought I was? Are people still going to talk to me now that they don't have to?

I guess this could all be an amount of fear of change and realizing the loss of blessings seen from serving in a way I had never done before. Also, I have yet to see the types of blessing to come from my new calling. I think I am narrowing down to my real question. Outwardly most people celebrate being released from callings, if only in jest.While others pat them on the back and congratulate them on being "set free". Am I the only one who feels a sense of loss after a calling is over?